It is easier to bite, but you do not have to. You can either project your powers outward, or you can simply put a finger to their temple and concentrate. It is not necessary to even lay a single tooth on another being. I really should make things more clear. But I think the aspect of biting that attracts us is the sexual aspect of it. A lot of people and vampires like to be bitten.

There is no explanation thus far as to why there is such a strong bond between the maker and the fledgling. But we all have theories. The change is so intimate, for one. You are putting some of yourself into another, and molding them into a creature like yourself. That’s perhaps why there aren’t more vampires out there. We only change those whom we find dear enough to get that close to, to share with them our blood, or to give them our “eternal kiss”. When we change them, they absorb part of ourselves, part of our habits as well. I have noticed in my own fledgling, many of my habits that were non-existent in him until recently. It’s not only his slight changes in pronunciation and word choice, exuberance and patience, but it’s also a change in small habits, and things that normally aren’t picked up by another. Plus, they can tell when you’re close by, and there is a love in them for you that never goes away, even if they are mad at you for damning them to a life of secrecy and mistrust of those closest to them. You never know who will try to use or hurt you when you’re a vampire.
Sometimes, you share dreams, cravings, and sickness. In some cases you share love. And after the years, the bond only grows stronger. You know how the other is feeling immediately, and you can tell if they are well or not. When we change them, we are spreading a bit of ourselves outward. It is like giving birth. Part of you goes on to them. And even sometimes part of those before you.

I got wanderlust about a month before Leo did. January the seventeenth, to be exact. I was kind of confused at the time, and didn’t figure out it was wanderlust until later, but that was all my fixation with Matt was in the end.
I actually kind of hate Matt a bit right now. I hate Marcus too. (Marcus is the case of wanderlust before him) I’ve known humans before who get to know you, and they’re okay, and even fun to be with. But then, when you tell them you’re a vampire, they start asking you to do things to them, show them things, or explain things. A person you used to think of as a friend, you come to hate. Who doesn’t hate someone who just seems interested in what you are instead of who you are? (Like those Christians whose first words upon meeting you are, “what church do you go to?” I hate people like that. >.<*) Most humans just want to use you once they find out you’re a vampire. That’s why the majority of us keep our identity secret. It is too hard to make friends when you have to be weary of knowledge whores. It is hard to keep it all a secret though, because you always wonder if your friends would like you the same if they knew you were a vampire. But that’s the curse. It’s either:
1.Not knowing if they like you or the creature you are
2.Not knowing if they would still be your friend if they knew
3.Wondering if they just want to use you.

Vampire relationships often fall into the pattern me and Leo’s had. Most vampire relationships will end for a few months, weeks, days, etc, and then begin again when both are sated. Vampires think differently and have different habits. We live differently. We go through stages where we want to be surrounded by humans, then times when we despise humans entirely, and just want to be with other vampires. We can grow tired of those we love, have a wild fling, and then get back to our lover and feel extremely in love again, with no remorse, though our lover may feel much of it. Vampires have a hard time staying in steady relationships. It’s part of the reason why most of us refuse to date out of our species. We have wanderlust, a natural curiosity that makes us want to “try” everyone we meet. We are content in situations where both vamps are happy, but in time, one morsel just looks too tasty to pass up. So the couple will part ways, and when they get what they want, return and be content once more. But it is only that easy in vampire/vampire relationships. There is much conflict with this behavior in mixed relationships.
(It’s not only weres and supes who get ultra possessive of their vampire mates. All beings do. We just hold so much fascination, and can be so “provocative” that they develop extreme “my toy” syndrome. It doesn’t help that the majority of us are good in bed either. We tend to make people become nymphomaniacs. Just look at all of Kyle’s leftovers. I won’t know about myself until I relinquish my virginity, but so far, most would say I am destined to become a legend. *Blushes* my extra power can prove that.)
I never got in relationships until this year because of my wanderlust. It was too difficult for me to deal with a true relationship and the tri-monthly wanderlust spell. But this year curiosity won out, and I tried a vampire/vampire relationship, which should have been the easiest. Only I made one mistake. He is a newborn fledgling, and doesn’t yet understand exactly how our minds work. And worst than that, I am his maker, and I have to try to explain it to him. But so far, I haven’t done a really good job of it. I never explained this aspect of wanderlust to him, and now that we’ve encountered it twice, I fear I may have lost him because of my incomplete teachings. But it’s hard to remember everything, especially when you’re used to the ones you are around understanding it all. I am so not used to this whole, having to be careful about hurting other’s feelings thing. And since I’ve waited too long to warn “lover boy,” (rolls eyes) he doesn’t understand what he’s going through. I never warned him. And now I pay the price for being a bad teacher. -_-* Plus, now that he is totally enthralled in the stage, having picked out his lamb from the pack, it will be impossible to explain to him. He will insist it is true love, or that I am just jealous, or bitter, or something, when really, he is just experiencing lust in its purest form: crimson.

Lately, I’ve been sick beyond belief. People have noticed. Leo noticed, and I told him it was just because of lack of feeding. But as he’s undoubtedly noticed, I don’t tell him everything. Sometimes I downright lie. But now, I’ll tell the truth.
I’m not blood or energy deprived. Or at least I wasn’t. In fact, Tuesday night before I got sick, I had 64 ounces, and I drained a bit of energy Wednesday morning. I was feeling better than ever until lunch, when Leo broke up with me.
After talking to my maker, and one of the elders, it is all clear to me.
Apparently, there are 3 causes of Dieum Salius. One is deprivation, and a very low energy level. Another is drinking bad blood. The third cause, which is my lot, is called, “Pertheis Bel.”
When a vampire looses what they feel is their one purpose, they loose their powers and control. All their energy that was stored up in their body is released into the air and into everything around them. This results in the vampire getting weaker and weaker. If the vampire doesn’t find a new purpose, or just go cold, they will die.
The symptoms of Dieum Salius are the same in all three cases. The vampire becomes very weak. After a varying amount of time, the vampire will suffer dizzy spells and the shivers. They get the aches. They vomit blood and receive nosebleeds immediately afterward. They get huge migraines. When it begins to go really far, they get fevers. Their usually pale visages are compromised. Their mouth turns blood red, and their cheeks and body is flushed. Their veins stand out in red lines. Their eyes turn red and become bloodshot. If the vampire reaches this state, they have a few days left. There is a chance to survive up until their last breath. At no time are they completely lost. It just requires a remedy. This time, I made it to the stage of turning red before I found a means of dealing with it. It is the farthest I have ever been in the Dieum Salius. The most dangerous version of it to have is Pertheis Bel because it cannot be remedied by a dose of energy or blood. It requires a revamping of the soul almost. It is a hard thing to accomplish. Many of us who suffer from this type do not survive it. I am lucky. But my state is still unsteady. Sometimes my “flame of purpose” wavers, and I feel sick again.